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I hate you. I hate you with all my heart. 

I didn't always hate you, I loved you at one point. 
I was so mad, always angry. Left out. 
My stupid brother, Feliciano, always got the attention. Always. 
He was the star sibling. Everyone wanted him, he was just so adorable. 

Wasn't I cute too? 

Why did nobody want me? 

I was cast aside. I was always the problem child. 

"Get Feliciano away from Lovino, his bitterness will rub off on him." 

I wasn't bitter. I was hurt. 
Why can't I be loved too?
What does he have that I don't? 

No one gave me a chance. 
No one even looked my way.
It was always, Feliciano this, Feliciano that! 
Why couldn't it be, Lovino this, Lovino that? 

That's right. I'm Lovino, it will never be about me. 

Is it so bad, wanting to be loved? 
I want what Feliciano had, I want to be happy. 

I was so glad when Mr.Roderich took him. Maybe the spotlight will shine on me now. 
Wrong. All I did was take the blame for him leaving. 

I thought I would never be wanted, until you found me, Antonio. 
When you said that you were taking me to live with you, that you would raise me, I was so happy. I was so overjoyed that I will finally be loved by someone, I smiled so much. 

It was heaven to have my own room, away from Feli. You used to take me everywhere with you, you let me pick the tomatoes, you let me paint. I felt like you truly loved me, I was wrong. 

It wasn't until one day when I overheard you talking to Mr.Roderich.
I thought you were going to tell him about all the fun we had together, how happy you were to have me. It was the exact opposite. 

You asked him, begged, PLEADED, for him to switch me for Feliciano. You wanted me gone and Feliciano to take my place. The one moment I thought I finally belonged...

I didn't want to hear anymore. I went to my room and closed the door. I made sure no one was around. 

I sat on my bed and cried. I cried for hours,I would have kept crying but my eyes started to hurt and my throat was dry. You didn't even realize that I was crying. You didn't care. 

I'm so hurt, I'm so angry at you. I'm angry at everyone. YOU ALL DID THIS TO ME! I don't like to be so mean and upset all the time, you don't know what it's like to be overshadowed everyday. 

I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME! I thought, for once, that it was just going to be about me. I was wrong. 

You still don't know that I cry. I cry everyday. I cry myself to sleep, I cry so hard that my chest starts to hurt. 

You rejected me. 

I finally understand now. 

Who needs Lovino when you got adorable Feliciano at your side?

I am, and always will be, second best. 

You showed me that now Antonio. For that, I hate you. 
I read a headcanon about this. It was about Romano being so upset about hearing that Spain wanted to trade him for Italy that he would sit in his room and cry for days on end.
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:iconkittykatrocks12:
kittykatrocks12 Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
*hug Lovino* You are loved by many people and Antonio is an idiot for doing that to you
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:iconina-blood:
Ina-Blood Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015   General Artist
Danisnotonfire: FEELS Feels The feels are killing me!!!!!!!It hurts....
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:iconjadenightblade:
JadeNightBlade Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeeeeeeeeesssssssss!!!!!
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:iconterrencethetitan:
Terrencethetitan Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2015
Pikachu Crying Plz No baby no...... we love you. Please don't be sad. We love you *all the fan girls give him a hug*
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:iconramendangosenbei:
ramendangosenbei Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2015
Danisnotonfire: FEELS why do they ignore him? WHY?!
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:iconmagdathehuman:
MagdaTheHuman Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2014  Hobbyist
:iconthefeelsplz:Danisnotonfire: FEELS Gloomy 
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:iconmarshmellopuffin:
Marshmellopuffin Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:iconfeelsplz: IM GONNA DIE FROM SADNESS
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:icontetocat100:
tetocat100 Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
this is soo Lovino's suiside note... DON'T KILL YOURSELF LOVINO-SEMPAI
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:iconpikahetagirlz4ever:
PikaHetaGirlz4Ever Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014
Q~Q
Romano: What the hell?
Me: ROMANO ILL LOVE YOU!!! -glomps-
Romano: EW GET OFF ME!!! POTATO BASTARD GET HER OFF ME!!!
Me: AND IIIIIII-EE-IIIII WILL ALWAYS LOOOOOOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!
Romano: :iconromanowtfplz:
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
One of the reasons why he's tsundere
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:iconpikahetagirlz4ever:
PikaHetaGirlz4Ever Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014
Yup! X3
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:iconthe-tomatoboss:
the-TomatoBoss Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2014  Student General Artist
UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SOOOOOOOOOOO FEELSYYYYYYYYYYYYY I'M CRYINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Me: LOVIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*HUGS'N'GLOMPS*
Lovino: WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET OFF ME YOU RAGAZZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me: BUT LOVIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'LL LOVE YOU LOVI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lovi: WHAT. THE. HELL. GET OFF GET OFF GET OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Romacat Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014
This is so good. I just want to smother Lovino in hugs! Let me love you! *Hugs chibi Lovino tightly*
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:iconallieallred:
allieallred Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:iconcryforeverplz: FEELZ!!!!! :iconexplodeplz:
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Mhm!
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:iconxxnightlight123xx:
Xxnightlight123xX Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2013
I shall never look at Antonio the same way again *curls into a ball and cries in corner* ...I need a hug now :'(
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:iconhugglesplz: I wrote something for Antonio. 

It's called Regret-Spain. I wrote a whole series for the countries but I'm not done yet
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Xxnightlight123xX Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2013
Yay hugs :'),I finished reading that and I just couldn't handle the feels!
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:iconladyoflegends:
LadyofLegends Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2013  Student Writer
:iconcryingplz:
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Let it out
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:iconblueflamesofsatan:
BlueFlamesOfSatan Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I think you just ripped my heart out and stomped on it... ;-; You're a really good writer!
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Aww thanks!
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:iconblueflamesofsatan:
BlueFlamesOfSatan Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome :3
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:iconpastriies:
pastriies Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013
I crai every time :iconshibeplz:
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Save those tears girl!
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:iconpastriies:
pastriies Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013
I can't

I CAN'T.
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
 I'm sorry to say this but...you broke your feels
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:iconpastriies:
pastriies Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013
ROMANO

Y U ALWAYS GIVE ME FEELS
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Because he's so damn sexay!
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:iconpastriies:
pastriies Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013
:iconmhmmplz:
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:iconyami-notenshi:
Yami-noTenshi Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Damn you for kicking me right in the feels!
And damn Spain for hurting South Italia like this! *cuddles lovi*
Damn Y U SoCute?! >.<
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Lucky for you I'm making a whole series based on the characters, full blown angst
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:iconyami-notenshi:
Yami-noTenshi Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yup, I noticed >XD I Like it! :D
But, when're you gonna update the America X Abused Reader? I really wanna read more there, too!
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm trying to piece together some pieces for it. I have an idea I just need to write it down. 
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SapphireBlueEyes7799 Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Asdfghjkl, Lovi nuuuh, don't cry :c
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
He needs a hug
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:iconenglandamericaitaly:
EnglandAmericaItaly Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Romano, you aren't second in my book! As much as I love your brother too, I'd prefer a tsundere! :) The only tsunderes are you and England. My friend and I have made two Hetalia worlds since England is both of our alltime favorite, but in the one where she's with him, I'm with you. :) (sorry. Just wanted to say that to Romano~)
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
He's very grateful for that
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:iconenglandamericaitaly:
EnglandAmericaItaly Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:D
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:iconl-jack:
L-Jack Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Pshh~! I would take Lovino over Feliciano any day!
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm with you there.
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:iconjc24scuba:
jc24scuba Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013   Artist
No lovino no, u r not a reject! I feel like a reject like u sometimes, but you're not a reject!

You're sent here 4 a reason!
If you believe you're not supposed to be here thing about this one question....

Why am I here, and what is your purpose?
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
His purpose is to satisfy the needs of all his fangirls!
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:iconjc24scuba:
jc24scuba Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013   Artist
Exactly!
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:iconpurpleasteroid:
PurpleAsteroid Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013
....oh TTnTT
It huts more when I realize gat canonically, Spain did do that...
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
When I was typing it, I remembered the episode too
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:icononigirifreak:
onigirifreak Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
... that moment when you get so sad and angry at the cruelty of the world you go into all-out crazy-tsundere mode and start almost laughing because if you don't you may never be able to stop crying...
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I have so many of those moments

So does Romano 
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:icononigirifreak:
onigirifreak Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Totally.
They make me look like I've gone off the deep end, though...
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:iconblightfighter45:
blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I think I did a little
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