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I hate you. I hate you with all my heart. 

I didn't always hate you, I loved you at one point. 
I was so mad, always angry. Left out. 
My stupid brother, Feliciano, always got the attention. Always. 
He was the star sibling. Everyone wanted him, he was just so adorable. 

Wasn't I cute too? 

Why did nobody want me? 

I was cast aside. I was always the problem child. 

"Get Feliciano away from Lovino, his bitterness will rub off on him." 

I wasn't bitter. I was hurt. 
Why can't I be loved too?
What does he have that I don't? 

No one gave me a chance. 
No one even looked my way.
It was always, Feliciano this, Feliciano that! 
Why couldn't it be, Lovino this, Lovino that? 

That's right. I'm Lovino, it will never be about me. 

Is it so bad, wanting to be loved? 
I want what Feliciano had, I want to be happy. 

I was so glad when Mr.Roderich took him. Maybe the spotlight will shine on me now. 
Wrong. All I did was take the blame for him leaving. 

I thought I would never be wanted, until you found me, Antonio. 
When you said that you were taking me to live with you, that you would raise me, I was so happy. I was so overjoyed that I will finally be loved by someone, I smiled so much. 

It was heaven to have my own room, away from Feli. You used to take me everywhere with you, you let me pick the tomatoes, you let me paint. I felt like you truly loved me, I was wrong. 

It wasn't until one day when I overheard you talking to Mr.Roderich.
I thought you were going to tell him about all the fun we had together, how happy you were to have me. It was the exact opposite. 

You asked him, begged, PLEADED, for him to switch me for Feliciano. You wanted me gone and Feliciano to take my place. The one moment I thought I finally belonged...

I didn't want to hear anymore. I went to my room and closed the door. I made sure no one was around. 

I sat on my bed and cried. I cried for hours,I would have kept crying but my eyes started to hurt and my throat was dry. You didn't even realize that I was crying. You didn't care. 

I'm so hurt, I'm so angry at you. I'm angry at everyone. YOU ALL DID THIS TO ME! I don't like to be so mean and upset all the time, you don't know what it's like to be overshadowed everyday. 

I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME! I thought, for once, that it was just going to be about me. I was wrong. 

You still don't know that I cry. I cry everyday. I cry myself to sleep, I cry so hard that my chest starts to hurt. 

You rejected me. 

I finally understand now. 

Who needs Lovino when you got adorable Feliciano at your side?

I am, and always will be, second best. 

You showed me that now Antonio. For that, I hate you. 
I read a headcanon about this. It was about Romano being so upset about hearing that Spain wanted to trade him for Italy that he would sit in his room and cry for days on end.
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tetocat100 Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
this is soo Lovino's suiside note... DON'T KILL YOURSELF LOVINO-SEMPAI
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PikaHetaGirlz4Ever Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014
Q~Q
Romano: What the hell?
Me: ROMANO ILL LOVE YOU!!! -glomps-
Romano: EW GET OFF ME!!! POTATO BASTARD GET HER OFF ME!!!
Me: AND IIIIIII-EE-IIIII WILL ALWAYS LOOOOOOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!
Romano: :iconromanowtfplz:
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blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
One of the reasons why he's tsundere
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PikaHetaGirlz4Ever Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014
Yup! X3
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Levian-53VODKAAA Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2014  Student General Artist
UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SOOOOOOOOOOO FEELSYYYYYYYYYYYYY I'M CRYINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Me: LOVIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*HUGS'N'GLOMPS*
Lovino: WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET OFF ME YOU RAGAZZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me: BUT LOVIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'LL LOVE YOU LOVI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lovi: WHAT. THE. HELL. GET OFF GET OFF GET OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Romacat Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014
This is so good. I just want to smother Lovino in hugs! Let me love you! *Hugs chibi Lovino tightly*
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allieallred Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:iconcryforeverplz: FEELZ!!!!! :iconexplodeplz:
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blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Mhm!
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Xxnightlight123xX Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2013
I shall never look at Antonio the same way again *curls into a ball and cries in corner* ...I need a hug now :'(
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blightfighter45 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:iconhugglesplz: I wrote something for Antonio. 

It's called Regret-Spain. I wrote a whole series for the countries but I'm not done yet
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