I didn't always hate you, I loved you at one point.
I was so mad, always angry. Left out.
My stupid brother, Feliciano, always got the attention. Always.
He was the star sibling. Everyone wanted him, he was just so adorable.
Wasn't I cute too?
Why did nobody want me?
I was cast aside. I was always the problem child.
"Get Feliciano away from Lovino, his bitterness will rub off on him."
I wasn't bitter. I was hurt.
Why can't I be loved too?
What does he have that I don't?
No one gave me a chance.
No one even looked my way.
It was always, Feliciano this, Feliciano that!
Why couldn't it be, Lovino this, Lovino that?
That's right. I'm Lovino, it will never be about me.
Is it so bad, wanting to be loved?
I want what Feliciano had, I want to be happy.
I was so glad when Mr.Roderich took him. Maybe the spotlight will shine on me now.
Wrong. All I did was take the blame for him leaving.
I thought I would never be wanted, until you found me, Antonio.
When you said that you were taking me to live with you, that you would raise me, I was so happy. I was so overjoyed that I will finally be loved by someone, I smiled so much.
It was heaven to have my own room, away from Feli. You used to take me everywhere with you, you let me pick the tomatoes, you let me paint. I felt like you truly loved me, I was wrong.
It wasn't until one day when I overheard you talking to Mr.Roderich.
I thought you were going to tell him about all the fun we had together, how happy you were to have me. It was the exact opposite.
You asked him, begged, PLEADED, for him to switch me for Feliciano. You wanted me gone and Feliciano to take my place. The one moment I thought I finally belonged...
I didn't want to hear anymore. I went to my room and closed the door. I made sure no one was around.
I sat on my bed and cried. I cried for hours,I would have kept crying but my eyes started to hurt and my throat was dry. You didn't even realize that I was crying. You didn't care.
I'm so hurt, I'm so angry at you. I'm angry at everyone. YOU ALL DID THIS TO ME! I don't like to be so mean and upset all the time, you don't know what it's like to be overshadowed everyday.
I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME! I thought, for once, that it was just going to be about me. I was wrong.
You still don't know that I cry. I cry everyday. I cry myself to sleep, I cry so hard that my chest starts to hurt.
You rejected me.
I finally understand now.
Who needs Lovino when you got adorable Feliciano at your side?
I am, and always will be, second best.
You showed me that now Antonio. For that, I hate you.