Americax Bullied! Abused! Reader
- Suicidal Thoughts!
I woke up the next day to find Alfred coming out his room scratching his head
"G-good morning Alfred."
He gave a wave and walked into the bathroom. Not everyone wakes up like Snow
White I guess. I waited for him to get out the bathroom and he looked refreshed,
"Um, may I use the bathroom?"
"I'm so sorry, I meant YOUR bathroom."
He gave a reassuring smile and said, "It's alright, you can use it. I couldn't
hear you at first that's why I said that."
"T-thank you." I walked into the bathroom and got ready for school.
When I got out he was eating a bagel and he looked to me, "You want some?"
I placed a hand on my stomach.
"N-no thank you. I'm not hungry."
His brows furrowed and he said, "You sure? You look pretty hungry."
"Well alright then."
I was starving but I didn't want to gain any weight, I'm fat enough as it
While we were in the car he said, "Look, I don't want to sound like a prick but
you got to get out the car."
"Because...I don't want anyone to think that....you know...."
My eyes widened and I felt the tears rising in my eyes. I just repressed it and
said, "I understand Alfred, I'll leave...."
I got out the car and I wasn't even in front of the school, I was like at least
two or three blocks away.
"At least I won't be late to school..."
I started walking slowly to school, I think about it from time to time, what
would happen if I just...left....ran away?
When I walked into the school I got called names immediately.
"Hey slut! Who'd ya fuck last night?!"
"Oh geez, they must have taken you out to a buffet, your are fucking fat!"
I just run into class to try and avoid the name calling but how can you avoid
The class all had their eyes on me and as I made my way to my seat, Gilbert
tripped me and I fell on the floor and bit my lip by accident so I had a fresh
cut on my lip. Everyone laughed and all I heard was, "Kesesese~"
The teacher came in and said, "Take your seats, take your seats."
Everyone shut up and faced the front of the class and I looked to the window and
watched the squirrel climb up the tree.
"It has the same color fur as Alfred's hair. Unusual...."
I snapped back into reality sadly.
The teacher was calling my name in a frustrated tone!
"You need to pay attention!"
"She can't, she's a dumb slut!"
I looked over to the person who said it and it caused the whole class to laugh.
The class quieted down and I squeaked,
He walked back over to the front of the class and continued his lesson. I looked
over to Alfred who was looking at me with shame written all over his face.
At lunch, I didn't even get a tray I wasn't trying to eat at all. I was tired of
being called fat.
"Oh look, what happened piggy? No tray, are you trying to stop pigging out?"
Elizabeta asked me, she was Gilbert's girlfriend and she was a total bitch.
"N-nothing, go away." I really don't have it in me anymore to fight them off.
"It doesn't matter what you'll do, you'll always be a fat slut."
Natalia, her friend, chimed in. "You should just kill yourself, no one would
Sadly, I believed her but the words hurt so bad. I got up and ran out the
cafeteria, I just needed to have a few minutes to myself.
I felt so bad for her, I'm starting to see what she's going through. She's
always just so sad now, the way I treated her this morning was horrible...just
down right rude. I have to go to her, I can't just leave her alone...
She's a mess, she's huddled in a corner of one of our empty classes and I could
hear her loud sobs from across the room. I slowly walk towards her so she
doesn't get startled. She looks up at me with red, puffy eyes that had tears
streaming down her cheeks.
I knelt down next to her.
"P-please, just go away."
"No. I'm not going to go away."
I sat down next to her and then I pulled her into my tight embrace and started
to rub her back slowly and she was fighting me I could feel her punching me but
she wasn't doing any damage.
"I never did anything to those people! Why do they treat me so bad?!"
"I don't know....try not to think about it so much...."
She pulled away from me and started screaming at me rather harshly, "No I'm not!
YOU'RE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE ALFRED!"
I was taken aback by her words.
"You treated me like dirt! When I was partnered up with you, you complained and
when I tried to introduce myself you rudely told me you didn't care. You laughed
when the other kids bullied me, you seen what they did to me, and you just kept
walking! You treated me like shit when I invited you to the burger spot and you
ignored me when I was talking to you, you made me run for thirty minutes because
you wouldn't drive me home! You saw me crying in the hallway and you just went
about your day! And today, you made me walk the rest of the way to school
because you didn't want to be seen with me!"
I felt tears brimming in my eyes, everything she was saying was true, I did
treat her like shit, and for what? My pride?
She collapsed on me and started to bawl, I was whispering sweet nothings and
rocking her back and forth. Her hair was so soft......
I pulled her back up to meet my eyes, "Look I know I've been acting like a
grade-A asshole, I was just doing that because my stupid pride wouldn't let me
see anything else. It took me to notice so many things about you, like how smart
you are, how sad you are...."
How beautiful she was.....I stopped myself before I could say it.
"You don't understand how miserable I am! I come here to have people beat me up
and call me horrible names just to go home to my drunken disgrace of a dad! I
haven't been eating anything because everyone keeps calling me fat!"
Now that she mentions it, I looked to her body and saw she was looking kind of
"You don't understand Alfred, I just feel like ending it all sometimes."
Her voice started to become monotone and her face changed to a cold, zombie-like
"I just pray that I go to sleep one day, and just never wake up....I want it, I
want it so bad....."
I stopped her right there, she sounded like she meant it. I took her face in my
hands and pleaded with her while tears of my own threatened to fall.
"Don't you say that ______, don't you ever say that again. I promise you....it
will get better......"
"No it won't.....it never will....." All the life from her beautiful [e/c] orbs
was sucked out and she looked dead already, a husk.
"Yes it will, I promise, I'll help you through this! You can spend the night at
my house again and I'll give you the guest room this time instead of the couch!"
"You want me going to your house? Won't everyone think something is going on?
You'll lose your reputation if you start dating me...."
"I don't give a fuck _____! I just don't want to see you like this!"
She looked at me and then rushed into my embrace. I kissed her forehead and
said, "I promise, you won't ever have to end it all.